What can i do i feel so trapped, it feels like theres no way out.?

I will be praying for you. It is hard when you are depressed and feel like there is no out. I would strongly recommend counseling. You keeping your feelings bottled up inside you is making you miserable. You need to let those deeper feelings out so that you can move on. I am sorry about the loss of your mother. I know you loved her. It is okay to cry. It is okay to let your feelings out. It actually takes a strong person to let others see your pain, fears, and sorrows. Hugs to you.